Mystic

2012-02-08T16:33:00.004+08:00

I think too much and too complicatedly. I think the only one who knows how to deal with me when I am deeply immense in my sentimental self is none other than him. My feelings can be so over that my actions act upon them so impulsively.

Oh well, I am just weird.

2012-02-07T18:23:00.006+08:00

So glad to finish the last presentation today. Nonetheless, the last report will be handed in this coming friday. And then, we are finally free from assignments. Phew.

I can't wait for March to come. It will be holiday time, new job this break and I hope it will be a good new experience for me. Yup, I am looking forward to working (;

Time and time again I contemplate over issues and feelings. Constantly feeling confused and not making my mind up.
How are things 'supposed' to be? How should one really act?
No matter how independent I can be, I still want someone to rely on and I thought it is normal for a girl. Of course, reliance has a limit and I know it. But, I guess the minimal reliance on someone isn't too much and I need that. It's gonna be a never ending struggle within myself. Sigh.

2012-02-05T01:01:00.003+08:00

It is always like this.... Being super motivated with school at the start of the term, on task and all. But gradually I'd lose my drive and slack. That happens to me a lot. This sem is not an exception ):

Lately, I've been feeling.... I don't know. I can't even describe it. I am not as expressive as I used to be, and that's because there are others' feelings to be mindful of. I can't be selfish and speak how I feel from my heart, I guess that's just isn't fair. (perhaps I am in need of some heart-to-heart-talk)haha

On the bright side, this indescribable feeling makes me a lot more sane. Sane in a way that I am less emotional because I am feeling nothing.

Like I said, it's really really indescribable. I can't put them in words but somehow my heart aches a lil.

Sigh. I just hate the feeling of loneliness even when I am surrounded with you, friends, strangers, whoever. When I am not even supposed to..

2012-01-21T13:50:00.002+08:00

Had been catching IVP VB for the last two days. Not a fan of volleyball but it was definitely an eyeopening game for me. It's the fighting spirits of those sportsmen which gave this competition a meaning. I guess in every sports, mentality(not forgetting teamwork) is the most crucial thing to possess. Without it, skills and talents are nothing.
Haha while watching the game, I thought of netball and really missed playing the game. Four years of it through out Dunman life can't be so easily forgotten(hah esp the tough training) hah nobody knows what's 'tough' until you've been thru Dunman's netball training! O:

Last but not least, congratulations to SIMVB team for emerging champions in the mens' category and 2nd for the girls :D

...................

Not a very pleasant Chinese New Year this year.

There is no atmosphere of cny at all, partly due to the never ending project submissions and class tests. This semester had been the worst so far, seriously. What's more? CRS Exam is on the 24th of Feb, which is scheduled in the study week. Talk about time management.... I need lots ):

On top of that, the bad news of the departure of my uncle hit my family last morning. It's funny how human beings can be so healthy, and the next moment, diagnosed with a incurable disease. There's nothing more important than good health, not even wealth. I guess it would be so hard for his two daughters and wife, now that they are on their own.
Always appreciate your loved ones, be it through actions or words.
Yup, gonna attend the funeral and send him on his last journey tomorrow morning.
RIP uncle.

2012-01-15T20:07:00.004+08:00

Steamboat at 天天火锅 with H11. Cheap and gooddd!
But my stomach paid the price the next day.... D:

Here's Zhiting haha we like the Diana effect on the app "Path" :D

The little monster~ Rawrrrrr tiger!
Playful max. His presence kinda helps when I'm feeling all stress for school work, cos he'd get me to play with him!
But.... some times he's the cause of my distraction at home. Haha ._.

Hello soakleafyboy~
.
.
.

Some pudding pictures~
.
.
.

112 Katong don't have much to shop, but their GV is kinda cool cos'
it's Peranakan themed!
Their seats are extra comfortable too (:

Lizhen with Elvis~ Strips ftw wahaha!!
.
.
.

Here's my baby niece! A month old today~
Yeah she looks like she's smiling (:
.
.
.

Oh yes, her name is Brielle~ Those pretty cupcakes customized for her first month!

Elvis being really sweet to his 妹妹 O: muacks! ^^
.
.
.

Okay here's my mum :D
Sadly, me no inherit her eyes! Love love her! (:
.
.
.

This week = CSIT and Accounting Test. Not forgetting FEM project submission D:
Good luck to me ):

There's no time to shop for CNY at all! So I've been blogshopping. Although it isn't tangible, can't try and all but I'm glad those stuff I bought were satisfactory (:

Ladies' apparels are really much cheaper than men's! No idea why too hah!

2012-01-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

There's a problem with people who likes to be alone, yet don't want to be alone.

2012-01-04T16:45:00.007+08:00

No time to shop for Chinese New Year?

Visit Tuesday Kalos for their latest Orient collection!

Apparels are of good quality and no doubt, good and fast delivery is done!

WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR? GRAB THEM NOW :D

2012-01-02T18:57:00.009+08:00

Happy 2012 everyone! :D

Spent NYE at clarke quay with soakleaf and his friends! Drank, erm danced(anyhow lah). HAHA bet none of you can imagine "huh li lian clubbing?!" and probably would give the wtf face. That was what I got when I bumped into my sec school friend at the dance floor. I think she's shocked lol

Night life once in a while feels good nonetheless, who cares about what others think? (: most importantly was the great company I've got..though I wasn't feeling very good due to the bad sore throat!

Had mac breakfast at about 6am before heading back to sleep! What a long night but a worthy one.

New year day itself...spent with soakleaf, but we were so tired that we headed home early after our lunch/dinner, four seasons durian pancake(as quoted: eat le will on form!) and baskins robbins! hahahaha

Back to projects for now! boohoooooooo

All right, hope everyone had a good start this year! Happy Happy New Year! (:

Artease milk tea (y)

taken with macbook air! hahaha

<3!

Elvis!

2011-12-27T00:55:00.005+08:00

HAHA merry christmas at the same time~

Happy one years' old to us! (:
A mini feast for this special occasion!

Life is definitely happier when it's shared.

2011-12-08T12:25:00.004+08:00

3 Dec 2011 @ the Zoo

Hum is missing D:

Zhiting!! (:

Rachel :D

Elvis saw this elephants and he said they are 'holding hands'.

Favourite pic of the White Tigers from Singapore Zoo!!
It's dozing off!!!!

Visited Singapore Flyer with group

Pasta from Sugarloaf from TP

<3

Used to be my favourite cartoon character! Haha EEYORE

Entering the month of December. Look how fast time flew. School was all right, except the part where there's THREE deadlines in a week. Followed by the last deadline is Accounting Test... which is 3 days away? I must say Managerial Accounting is SO BORING...

Two weeks break will be spent by working and project meetings and... I don't know. There's nothing for me to look forward to, not even Christmas.. Perhaps the 20th?

Oh well but I am not hopeful of anything.

Come by a really long way (':

2011-11-18T21:52:00.006+08:00

The above photos are just a few of the ones I had taken at MAAD held at Red Dot Design Museum on 11/11/11!

If not for Festivals and Events Management, I wouldn't know such event existed in Singapore!

Haha basically it's a platform for local talents to put their works on sale. It's like a flea market, just that there are no 2nd hand items and all are made truly by the stall vendors!

It's a really interesting experience and I might consider to visit it again soon? Anyway it's a monthly event! Just gotta check the web for the exact date and time (:

Got myself a Gewwybeans pouch which cost $11 cos I am the first 11 customers! hahahaha!!!!
SO CUTE RIGHT O:
Go Facebook and search for Gewwybeans if you're interested!
They sell very cute stuff!

After that, headed to Sweety Moments, a dessert shop at craig road with Kangy.
It's a new store in town by the way, opened by my sis's friend and it's my first time there.
The ambience wasn't too bad cos there were no customers except us during dinner time. hahahahah
Below are the varieties of stuff we ordered.
YES FRIED ICE CREAM!!!!

So long since I had fried ice cream! It's a must try!

The dimsum spring roll with mango is good too!

The pictures look so yummy don't they!?

Random shot at Bedoookkkkkkk (:

Pizzahut with zhen few days back! Yumyumz ^^

It's so worrisome that I haven't pick up the momentum for school. It's already the fourth week for god's sake....

Can't be blamed I guess? No urgency at all!

Group projects aren't progressing too. I guess it's really a group effort this time. There is no use organising numerous meetings and no one has the heart to attend and prepare for the meeting. This is just so disheartening. One effort is not enough, it's a group. I hope as the days go by, things will really get better, yes I mean really better!

Oh man, elective selection tomorrow! Not again...... hate having to change class EVERY semester. Very sian you know D:

OH WELLLLLLLL

Ok bye~~~to whoever is reading this. haha

So hard not to dote on him! hahaha

2011-11-05T23:39:00.004+08:00

Yes! That's my organizer for 2012! Although I had second thoughts before purchasing, I still got this cos' it's really the best I could find!

Had a new job training today.... I thought it would focus on product training but I was wrong!!!
It was more of customer service techniques. Okay, it was really nothing new to me. I had to struggle to keep myself awake, kept fidgeting in my seat. Oh well, getting paid to sit down and listen. Not that bad after all?
All the sitting down and listening gave me a real bad headache afterwards. zzZ

PH tomorrow and no doubt I am worrrrrking~ heeheeeeee
Enjoy the long weekend people!!!!!!!!

2011-10-30T15:51:00.003+08:00

Capable sis I have! (;

Second week of school tomorrow, which means tutorials will start officially. But I am still in my holiday mood ): uh oh...
I need to be more diligent this semester!!!!! Yup I know I need to quit saying that and start doing it!

Can't wait for this sem to be done with! Looking forward to March Holidaysssssss :DDDDDDD

2011-10-22T15:17:00.004+08:00

2H10 Chalet last Thursday! :D
So everyone is posted to different classes except a few lucky ones who managed to be in the same class with the people they are familiar with. I must say I am that few lucky people.

Nonetheless, I foresee there will be problems etc when forming project groups whatnot. Oh well...everyone wants good members isn't it? Nobody wants to do extra work for 'free riders' and nobody wants their grade to be hindered.

Hoping that this semester will be a good one.
Then again, I gotta juggle between school(projects+tests+exams) and work.

Let's hope everything will go just fine.

(:

Gonna miss these girls cos none of them are in my class!

.
.
.
.
.
.

Mummy's Birthday!

Four Seasons Durian Cake! It's really yummay!!!!

Little rascal gettin' more excited than everyone :P

Never fails to make my day :D

2011-10-17T23:59:00.008+08:00

I don't know how independent/mature/hostile/weird I appear to others. Some thinks that I am a strong and independent girl; hah but I can't deny that.
But when it comes to love, I am still immature/childish/harsh and yup, too emotional.

Lack of experience or simply too indecisive? Love, is not as easy as it seems. To me, it takes a lot to love someone(excluding your family). Cos' you don't know how he is like in different situations, what he is thinking.. whether both of you are really compatible.
Love is some form of philosophy in life that sets me thinking on loads of things. And that's when emotions come along.

I believe the mind can manipulate us before we make any decisions. More often than not, these decisions were made on impulse or under undesirable emotional stress.

Solve problems without emotions. I suppose this is the best way to resolve any issues becos' feelings are temporary and perhaps foolish.

Think clear, think logically.
Love is not as beautiful and magically as I've always imagined. (Imagination is bad because my expectations are raised, and it makes me demanding and unreasonable)
It's full of barriers and it's a test of how strong you and your partner really are, mentally.
To not succumb to bad times etc.. it's really a challenge.

When you truly love someone, you can't help but accept them for who they are.
At times, I change my perspective..put myself in his shoes too.

Yup, love is selfless.
There's still a lot for me to learn, for you to learn, for us to learn.

(:

We are all growing and we get to choose who we want to become.

2011-10-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

很好听!

2011-10-04T22:04:00.001+08:00

So mundane! Need more interesting things this hols!!

2011-09-30T01:05:00.002+08:00

Humans are weird. Sometimes we act the same, sometimes we don't. We get confused/hurt/angry/sad by our own kind not knowing why we allowed that to happen.

Companionship is important and crucial, but if you can't name what are the likes and dislikes of your friend then you're completely unobservant.

I have no idea why I have such raging feelings within me. I need to vent it out but I know nothing's gonna change. Cos promises are useless and would most probably end up being broken. Actions speak louder than words - cliche but realistically true.

I wished people are more persistent, on the right things of course. To me, indifference means "I don't give a shit" about things.

OH I FORGOT..
I guess it's just me taking note of too much small details that others don't. I tend to do this when I am tired heh

lalalalalalalalala~

Oh hello here's mr wu!

2011-09-17T23:51:00.002+08:00

I get confused by confessions.

What I get isn't what I want; and what I want isn't there at all.

Good feelings have been missing for too long and I can't seem to get them back. Nobody can tell me what to do. Great I am so lost.

SO CLUELESS. WHAT DO I WANT?

2011-09-05T00:42:00.002+08:00

Haven't watch movie for such a long time! Finally caught one today together with soakleaf, The Smurf!

We had a good laugh cos' it's really entertaining! Everyone, anyone should watch it. You'll feel miraculously happy after the movie, no doubt! (advertise advertise advertise) HAHA soakleaf resembles like Clumsy btw! HAAAHAHA

la la la-la la la sing a happy song~
la la la-la la la smurf your whole day long!

Okay..

It's the REAL holidays now. Not the pathetic one week break we get in the middle of the semester, oh wait it isn't a break at all. It's a period for us to catch with our work and projects. BOOHOO

Yup you know it's the real holidays when you HAVE to think of what to do the next day everyday. Love this kind of carefree days..no deadlines/tests to worry about! FEEL SO GOOD!

& as expected, my holidays are usually standardized. WORK LOR $_$

Just gonna work more this month then take more breaks the next month. Hmmm
Money does make the world go round if you hadn't realize it! Not money-faced but you really need them in reality. Be it taking transport or buying food to fill your empty stomach. Which of it isn't true? Most importantly to satisfy our wants!(materialism) heh!

Yeah yeah just gotta work and depend on myself this holidays (:

Just hope I wouldn't KO after working for three days, starting from monday.....

gambatte!!!
(watched too much Sunny Girl 阳光天使) hahaha

Okayz ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! :D

2011-08-29T15:41:00.003+08:00

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

The subject which I don't think I am good at -accounting for H&T- is finally OVER! Had this really nauseous feeling while attempting the last question and I just stoned there for a while. Maybe I was too hungry. HAHA

Okay now I'm only left with two days to study for two subjects. Gotta chiong!

Oh yeah went to collect my renewed passport after the paper and the counter staff forgot to return my old passport! So I received her call and TAP OUT of Lavender MRT platform without boarding a single train -_- Waste of time and money!!! 气死人!

Sometimes I think once you're in the hospitality course, you'll be more particular about service more than anyone else. No?

All rightttttttt, slacked enough!

xo

2011-08-26T00:19:00.004+08:00

"Some times life's gonna hit you in the head with a brick, don't lost faith."

"Your work is gonna fill a large part of your life and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do."

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life."

"Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown up your own inner voice and most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow already know what you truly want to become"

Steve Jobs is truly inspiring!

2011-08-21T18:42:00.004+08:00

@ Grandma's 81st ~

.
.
.

So do I resemble more like my eldest sis(above) or my second sis(below)?

I would very much want to turn this space of mine into a photo gallery.
But I'd need a good cam.

I'd need to have Time too.

Back to the books!
xoxo

2011-08-20T23:12:00.002+08:00

Credit: Tumblr

Don't you love images like this?
I love it cos' it feels like I am back in the past.
Not like I've lived in the olden days before, but images like this is what I've pictured in my mind.
(:

Today is just a boring day.
Went for work but it seems like I was there to pass time and slack my saturday off.
一点成就感也没有

Still in a dilemma.
SHOULD I ATTEND GRANDMA'S BIRTHDAY
OR
SHOULD I STAY HOME TO STUDY?
=/

Sometimes I get a little worried when I feel nothing for someone.

2011-08-18T20:50:00.005+08:00

Only managed to sleep for 3 hours or less before the last day of service skills methodology.

I was so worried I won't be able to do well as an assistant head waiter. I dislike leading or delegating work; I always liked doing everything myself! Haha

But it turned out pretty well, I enjoyed working with the other group and helping out behind the counters. It all paid off with the good sales figure and compliments on our service. That's just so comforting, isn't it?!

Yup I am so glad it has come to an end.

No more dreading of Thursday every Wednesday night, no more waking up at 5 plus in the morning, no more gel-ing of hair, no more grooming check, no more working with an empty stomach for 8hours or more..

All these isn't that tough for me since it was similar to working outside as a part-time retail assistant. But it's just a little too taxing as a student.

Despite complaining all these while for the things to be complied, I have learnt a lot through this module. They are things that are so valuable that you won't learn in the working world. Yes maybe you will, but no one would be so patient with you compared to our service instructors!

Last but not least, I'll miss SSM for sure. All the fun we had together~

Proud to be a student of TP's Hospitality & Tourism Management! (:
HTM 2011~

2011-08-18T19:47:00.005+08:00

CELEBRATE THE END OF 14 WEEKS!!!!!!!!

2011-08-13T09:34:00.005+08:00

Always wanted to blog, and then I find myself backspacing what I typed.. If not someone had to disrupt me from my string of thoughts.

I have no idea what I am looking forward too actually. I always knew that I have to hold my expectations low, my demands and wants low so as to minimize the disappointments that I'd possibly get later on. But I am not a person of much tolerance these days and I voice out whatever I feel is wrong. Hoping to get things changed. That's quite a naive thought huh.

Months back, I knew how someone in my position was treated not right but I was silly enough to take over her place. Now that I am standing from this point of view, I get so easily paranoid and scared that what happened to her might happen to me too.

In times of need, all I want was one to listen and talk to me. Not someone whom blabber nonsensical stuff and joke around when I confide to them. That's ironic because that person should be making me feel better about myself, not worse.

All girls appreciate it when others take the initiations to plan, I am not an exception here.
I get a little bad sometimes when people make last minute decisions and plans cos' things could be done way before hand..
But then again, it's just the LITTLE things that others wouldn't take note of; perhaps only I do?

I am so easily manipulated by my feelings and I get on the edge once in a while. Giving up was what I chose few months back and I don't want this to happen again. If only I was strong enough mentally to do what's deemed right, and I wouldn't get myself in misery.

Differences do shape everyone in their unique ways and it's quite impossible to change them.

All we can do is to compromise; happy times will be back.

It's quite sad to experience things
which were not planned the way I did.

2011-08-02T19:55:00.001+08:00

This week is so so hard to pass, can't wait for thurs and fri! ♥♥♥

2011-07-31T01:33:00.004+08:00

Heehee a really short get away!
.
.
.

2011-07-30T18:36:00.006+08:00

There are things I restrain myself from doing, while doing so I've also restricted my feelings. I guess I have suppressed my feelings too much to suit everyone that I no longer feel myself.

I restricted myself from thinking and imagining too much. But I can't help when intuition comes so strong, because they are most of the time right. Aren't they? It's even worst when reality comes right into my face and a lie was said to cover it.

Trust, faith, these are understatement of elements that keep something moving on.

I've never given anyone trust wholly and I know I can't afford to; at least for now. There are too much to consider before one can actually trust and love someone for who they are.

It feels like the distance is getting wider and there is nothing I can do! It's good too, cos' it hurts a lil lesser (:

I'm good I'm fine, don't come asking if I am ok, cos I definitely am.

Just one of the post that you see myself reflecting on things that will be deemed useless in the future.

Just momentary stuff! (:

BYE!
xoxo

2011-07-29T23:30:00.005+08:00

After dining at Top Table!

TTO test tomorrow and I'm not even 50% prepared. Now that I'm sick, it's making everything worse. Heavy head, bad nasal, tiredness and everything.
Soakleaf and dad even realized that I kept falling sick once every few months.

Maybe it's just stress, or maybe it's just me );

OH WELL LIFE GOES ON..

Like the catchy melody of this song! (:

2011-07-21T18:21:00.003+08:00

This is too cute not to be shared!

Awws..

Had my last week at Top Table today! Held the position of the bartender with PeiLing and I felt that it was a good new experience! Learnt to make coffee(which I personally don't drink), created mocktails etc yep! Rather basic though, but there was so much work when all the orders came in!

Done lots of washings and my hands are so dry now; I don't even do this at home haha

My team was really helpful.... they helped me tidy, wash up and clean up the bar at the end of operation. These helping hands made closing so much faster :D

Now back to Proficiency test for the next 3 weeks! Found that it's quite a pity for our group to split up during project week. Poor us gotta work with a new group ):

Will be away this weekend!

BE BACK SOON ~
xoxo

2011-07-18T20:47:00.004+08:00

Finally out with this girl with a different purpose! No more studying! haha had a great time catching up with her (:

Some pretty shots we took :D

Oh yes, tried chocolate melts yesterday. Not satisfactory, I still prefer cinnamon melts!

So stress over school. And I need to do something about it. Need LOTS of motivation.

2011-07-16T10:18:00.006+08:00

Met up with ex-colleagues(ex since I haven't worked there after sooo long) to celebrate Gilbert's birthday last night. They are for everrrrr lame and crappy! But I gotta admit the way they joke is way too funny; my stomach never fails to ache for laughing too hard!

Dinner at Newton! The last time I went there was hmm Celio*'s gathering. That's really long ago. Had the usuals...stingrays etc... Then kinda struggled for a while on where to go before settling at Lunar Bar. The loud music there making me giddy, not the liquor zzzzzz

Yeah I'm not a night life kind of person, but was finally there at clarke quay on a friday night. I think the atmosphere's really good! Except the part of seeing drunkards here and there..tsktsk
More to go in the future! Best part of growing up is have fun! No?! :D

instagrammmm~

Gotta head off to work soon ):

2011-07-12T11:41:00.003+08:00

Today's like a day off from school because I decided not to go for marketing and bese lectures and there are no tutorials too! ^^

Great weather to start the morning; cloudy and windy! How I wish everyday would be like this, and not sunny..humid.. D:

So I guess I'd use today to complete some work today(hopefully)

Here's something my group had made for our TTO presentation! It was deborah's idea and it turned out great heehee :D

Okay all of us sound different in the video.... can you recognise my voice?!?!

ENJOY~!

2011-07-09T01:41:00.003+08:00

YOOHOOOOOO

Didn't have my Marche meal today and I'm still feeling bad about it! I'm feeling bad for my stomach actually! HAHA

Two weeks of school passed after the mid semester break. Got back all the tests papers and I didn't do well at all; perhaps an exception for my CDS. I wished I was a more hardworking person and not a last-minute girl who does revision when exams are nearing.
I feel as though there is nothing much I can look forward to in school anymore. And education is not in any way a priority in my life now. Yeah I know this sounds kind of depressing but giving up is never an option for myself. Well, I know I can't afford to.

This is making me so lost. But what can I do?

Another thing is I hate having to put up an act to please people around me. I know at times I appear to be aloof and uninterested in the things, boring as it is, this is just me.
Ironically, sometimes I put up a mask to avoid conflicts or awkward situations. It's good that I can adapt and is flexible to different circumstances but it gets tiring after a while. After changing here and there, here and there. I need a place to be alone. But hey, there's no time for such nonsense.

What a life this is.

Good bye

2011-06-27T21:44:00.005+08:00

Sleepy old man!!!!!!!!

Cuba libre~

Patronised this cafe/bar for the first time @ Prinsep Street few nights back with @soakleaf! Pretty cool one. Yeah cool meaning chilly cool and coolio cool HAHA k whatever.

Love places like this where they blast the aircon! So I won't have to break a single perspiration haha but it was really really cold, would be good if I had my jacket with me. sobsob

Taohuey-ed before Alps!

Now back to reality
.
.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL....
spent the whole time in school with @rachelkangliyi! haha skipped accounting lecture to do some catch-up with project. Now I Realized That I Have A Lot A Lot To Do.

Ohhhh Emmmm Geeeeeee (get it rachy HAHA)

Little Elvis had his 豆豆班 registration done today!
Haha back then I didn't even had such thing lo. Hope he won't be a cry baby on his first day of school this friday!

Trying his new uniform! :D fits perrrrfectly huh

The super duper filling dinner at manhattan's!

The waiter then passed their laptop to him to do survey. woah?

okay happy tummy gonna catch 醉后决定爱上你 with @chenlizhen now!

2011-06-22T21:17:00.005+08:00

Something wrong with photobucket! Now I need to use blogger uploader -_-

Barrage with the girls!
.
.
.

Jo and Cherie!

At Malaysia
.
.
.

2011-06-22T20:44:00.003+08:00

I haven't blogged in a while, hate having to start blogging with all these negative feelings. I think I am really weird. Sometimes my words just fill themselves up with anguish, sadness and whatnot. Not intentional, it's just how I feel! Tell me what's wrong with that? I am not so emo one oook! I am just not the kind of sweet girl. I can't act and I can't lie to be someone I am not. Just too honest to be me at times. hah.
And I find it hard to communicate with people who can't express themselves through words. If your actions don't show, at least your words should be the one comforting me.

Well, it's just things no one can understand.
What I should have said, I did. They are either not taken in mind or not well received.

I've been really lazy to start with project stuff this holiday. Wait, it's not even a holiday, it's just a pathetic two weeks break. Coming to an end now and I am totally not ready for school ):

Malaysia trip was quite boring, envy those who went to Australia. There are so much for them over there. Malaysia is just, boring. But hmm, Genting for me this coming July. It will definitely be better than the edu trip, positive! heh

My mum told me I look skinnier(not so fat) today. Quite happy to hear that but I see no difference. I am still as fat as before. Haha whoops something random here

an abrupt ending hereeee

goodbyeeeee

2011-06-21T23:37:00.003+08:00

Some girls just deserve better. Am I one of them?

The start of a new job always result in something bad happening.

I hate the on-off passion in relationship, or perhaps I just see no consistency.

If you think you can find your girlfriend when you are lonely, then shun them away when you are all right being alone, you are wrong. I have no idea what guys like this are thinking.
Never spared a thought for your partner, how she is doing etc. How selfish that is. And how worthless that relationship is.

Yup the time has come, I suppose.

My mind is clear now, and I know what I want.

2011-06-09T14:16:00.003+08:00

COMPLETED PROFICIENCY TEST 1!!!!

It's overrrrr! But I was so frustrated with myself for all the careless mistakes I made. The additional stress from certain instructors was so great that I was kind of affected )': okay I'm still glad I made it through.

Gonna give myself a good rest before heading out for a movie and dinner!

Ohhhhh oh before I go, here are some photos I took today

HAHAHAHAHA WE ALL LOOK THE SAME!!!!! HAHA

yup that's how we are supposed to look for this module....hmm~

2011-06-06T20:57:00.003+08:00

Mid-Sem test week...!

Haven't felt well since yesterday. Yup it's always my throat causing all the trouble. This sucks because Wed's accounting test and Thur's my prof test(actually a practical to set table, serve dishes and clear dishes). Sounds easy but I don't think it is, let's hope I don't miss out any minute details during the test itself!

I've been chanting that "I will be ok" today cos I don't want to MC for any of these two tests ): My health not getting any better, cos it seems like I'm always falling sick, like wtf..... ok mind over body!!!

Ok friends, don't mean to tweet what you all deemed as "emo" stuff on twitter. There are just too much I think about every now and then. Guess it's just me! But no worries I am good (:

Good luck for midsem test everybodeh! xoxo

:D

2011-05-29T19:25:00.006+08:00

It's a stay home Sunday.

Participated in Sundown Marathon Singapore 2011 on saturday evening - only 10km. Although it seems a lot lesser than 42km, it was still a matter of determination, mentally and physically. Further more it was my first time taking part in a marathon! :D hee
The beginning sucks because I had to fight the crowd and I ran the entire race alone after I lost my sister. Anyway I never liked running with company, very much prefer running alone, no pressure and stress. Yes running should be something that can free myself from burden (:

So the only thing I'm proud of is that I ran constantly for 8km! Started brisk walking after 8km cos' my legs were so exhausted! This is what happens when no training was done, and when I am FAT. So yeah I only hydrated myself with 100plus at the last hydration station cos' I was so so thirsty! The volunteers distributing the drinks work so slow! I've volunteered last year and I'm sure that I do a better job than them. haha

The running routes were straight, free from obstacles and all. That made 1km seemed like 10km, the signage seemed so far apart! Not kidding!

No idea what I was thinking during the run, I just kept running. Didn't think of anything at all!

Oh well, still manage to complete my first 10km (: no superb timing but at least I know I did my best! I wanna take part in Sundown next year again! :D

if only adidas was the sponsor D:

Spent today doing BESE report.. which seemed like an individual work instead of a group. Nonetheless, still managed to pull through and submitted it on Olive few hours back. I'm really hoping this will not happen to two other projects. hmm..

2011-05-24T23:19:00.008+08:00

Love is not as simple as it seems to be. Getting together, confessing that you like him/her, holding hands, endless chats etc. It is not just that that I expect. Those are childish concepts of love.

I always thought love was something for the grown ups.

Because when you love...

You care for him/her
You want to know about his/her life
You want to be part of his/her life
You understand his/her dislikes and likes
You can flare up at him/her then reconcile because love is greater than your ego
You think of him/her before others
You don't neglect him/her even when you're so caught up with endless schedules
You communicate and sort out disagreements before it piles up

You always want to do something for him/her.
You always make an effort to make this love stronger.

and most of the times, these are too much for a teenager to handle.

Am I all wrong to say those that I've mentioned above? Or is it just me AGAIN, exaggerating my thoughts every now and then?

I really wonder, and I wonder again

If friends were more important, why do I need someone by my side?

I really wonder, and I wonder again

If I am so independent, why do I want to rely on someone?

I hate changes, it takes away things I've adapted to and give me things that I never wished/asked for. But again, changes are inevitable.

I thought this entry was more of logic than me being emotional.
I don't process thoughts like a 18 years-old.

2011-05-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

I am so dead.

Not motivated to do my own learning ever since school began. No drive, no goals.... no nothing.

So every Thursday, like I've said, is a battle for me. Those 8 hours were always sooo well-spent that my body will ache the next day. An exception this week, I saw the effect, almost immediately - a swollen pinky.

Hate the fact that I'm doing something I dislike, yeah which is waitressing. But I guess I need to learn to like it before it's too late. Before I fail this module and have to repeat is all over again omg nobody wants that! D: *trembles

OH today was so bad because I was super duper whiny in the morning. Kept complaining how tired and sleepy I was even before the battle started. Haha because I had insufficient sleep!!!!!! I'm the kind of girl where sleep > school work..yeah I think sleeping is the most important thing to do in order to rest our body!
Oh anyway, came home late due to some company Dinner and Dance event held at Hilton Hotel. The buffet meal served were mediocre and didn't fill most of our stomachs. So disappointing!!! Nonetheless, I still had a great entertaining night! It could have been better if some fatty went! D: haha

Netballer + school mate + colleague
hahaha it's Joreen!

&... the wuzun lookalike!(maybe he look more like him in real life)
Mr Chan!

Okay feels like I got the blogging mood back. Bad and a good thing I reckon.

Haha shall blog often, though not many reads them.

BYE!

2011-05-09T22:26:00.004+08:00

"Every girl needs someone whom they can trust, talk to and rely on;
someone who can take care of them."

2011-05-08T23:20:00.001+08:00

Heard this over the radio, thought it was quite nice.

This is another singer form 超级星光大道！

(:

2011-05-07T21:01:00.005+08:00

It's okay if you stray once in a while, what's important is you get back on track. However, if you don't, that's it. You lose everything.

..............

Oh man, Sundown marathon just weeks away and I just started my running routine today. Is it a little too late? Have been feeling so lazy to run these days, but I still did it today after work. It's actually quite shiok when my body and face are burning. haha (but then hor, my fats still around leh, annoying. zzz)
Hope that I'd remain constant in my run, so I won't waste my 10k run away. Erm yeah.. O:

Projects about to start and I need to read up on them soon. At the same time, gotta spare some time of my weekends for work. Yeah I'm still working....... Hmm need to plan my time well, spend it well... Again, it's easier said than done. *big big sigh

And SSM is getting tougher each week. I need to be physically more fit and of course, absorb whatever that was taught and perform it. Not easy. Every Thursdays are like gym session for me, never fail to get muscle aches the following day ):

It's weird I think so much lately. I begin to wonder "what if I wasn't meant for this industry?", "what if I'm not suited to be in service?".

But I was so passionate about it just yesterday.

Hate how fast things always change.

Perhaps it's just me. OH OH OH EMO

haha

Long entry wor~hah! okay good bye (:

I love people who can read between the lines. And I hate it when the people I love are too dumb to do so ): boohoohoo~

My mischievous nephew! HAHAHA

2011-05-04T21:36:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was kinda a bad day. Long day in school and I had headache then felt nauseous after that. And so... I missed Accounting Lec AGAIN ): now I'm quite lost and foreign with all the terms on the notes. Bad start, bad start.

The nauseous feeling was really bad. Slept it away in 2 hours but it resulted me turning into an insomniac at night. Rolled in bed till 4am before I went to dreamland.

My eyelids are so heavy now!!!! SSM tomorrow!!!!! Oh well hope to be stronger every week, yeah in terms of mentality of course.

Hmm might join Renegades next next sat. Kinda looking forward to it, been some time since I played on court. Miss playing with all the dunman people too.
Oh well not so confident... but still gonna give it a try (:

Hokay off from blogspot!

2011-05-02T01:35:00.001+08:00

There are feelings which words can't say.

I'm starting to feel my indifference.

What do I want?

So what happens to your goal when the passion fades?
Or does it fade because the goal has changed?
Anyone?

2011-04-29T16:53:00.002+08:00

End of week 1. Mc for 3 days out of 5, what a great start?

Omg I am so sick but I turned up for SSM. I survived it without sitting down, resting or fainting! Haha guess I'm quite used to all the standing during netball last time and also due to long hours of working at retail. Just didn't feel good and didn't want to talk a lot during the 8 hours torture.

It's good that people around are helpful and spurs you on to become stronger. But I just don't get it when they mock at others at their disability. The least they could do was not to mock, I suppose.

And I can never be a waitress. I've never liked F&B stuff and that's kind of the THING that makes me so so reluctant about waitressing, about SSM. A wrong mentality to start with. Oh no?

17weeks sounds so long. I'd definitely survive, just hoping that the process of learning is good and fun. (:

Last but not least

I NEED TO RECOVER. OMG SEEN 2 DOCTORS BUT I AM NOT MAKING SIGNS OF RECOVERY. NEVER BEEN SO SICK FOR SO LONG.

Being this sick is damn damn terrible.

Endless flowing of mucus and phlegm..

)':

ENJOY THE LONG WEEKEND EVERYONE

2011-04-24T23:21:00.004+08:00

NEW SHIIIII KU BAG WEEEHAAAA! YES I LOVEEE BLUE!

okay, school tomorrow and I'm so sick.
Inflamed throat(kns always the throat give me problem), runny nose and headache.
Popped two panadol EXTRA and had PIPAGAO. Yeah self medicate hehe
But I'm still feeling so horrible. Scare myself big time when I coughed out a huge blotch of dark GREEN phlegm when I woke up this morning. Ew
So so horrrrrrible )':

Oh yes, had a mini retail therapy with zhennyzhen today.
Bought the lipstick, stockings and hair gel.... Actually, the SSM uniform isn't that bad, it's just the HAIR and LIPS part that turn we girls into...ugly monsters. Ok no, pretty girls still look pretty....
I wonder if the lipstick I bought is TOO red or bright. Hmmmmmm

Sigh mix feelings for Year 2.
I better be hardworking, and my classmates better be good influences......hmm

I'll miss 1H11 for sure ):

HAHAHAHAHA ^^

2011-04-23T00:52:00.002+08:00

This is scary, but rather factual.

2011-04-21T13:42:00.002+08:00

There goes my weekdays for 2.1.

Ending everyday at 6pm, if not 7pm.

SSM for 8 hours every Thursdays followed by a 2 hours tutorial. OMG.

I declare war with Thursday.

2011-04-18T00:03:00.005+08:00

Okay.. Tomorrow will be the last day I see ZY! And we won't be seeing each other for 11days! Longest day apart, omg! Ha no worries I'm not dependent to the extent I'd die not seeing him for so long(ya acting like I am damn positive lol). Heh but I hope school and work will help me fight all the misses I have for him, so time will pass faster too (:

love this shot!

Talking about school....... it's just one week away! ):

Omgosh, I kind of dislike making new friends and all. Finding new project mates, getting to know who's the 'good/bad' ones etc. These craps drain me out mentally -_- In addition, there's SSM. 8 hours every week, it better be nice....hmm

Uh oh, haven't collected my uniform..haven't buy those ugly court shoes and.... haven't gotten my hair dye back to black!

Yes I'm SOOOO ready for school, not.

):

Thinking of alllllll the rush-for-deadlines life makes me so sick! Motivation better be at its peak for year 2. LET'S STRIVEEEEE~

haha a little crazy now, idk why D:

BYE

2011-04-13T20:38:00.001+08:00

Have a B R E A K from all those thoughts.
Be back soon.

xoxo

2011-04-11T13:54:00.002+08:00

There are reasons why I say spiteful things at times.

Ignorance is bliss, but not all the time. Nobody wants to be a fool.

2011-04-04T23:54:00.002+08:00

love this song! great singer too heehee!

okay I'm supposed to work lesser this month, but seems like I'm still helping out at both sides this week -_-oh well at least not everyday!

No point of fearing that you'd lose something that wasn't yours in the first place.

2011-04-03T01:05:00.003+08:00

I like how people phrase simple words into things so factual in life. Here's one from my Facebook.

"In life you'll be left out,talked about,lied to,and used...It's up to you to decide who is worth your tears and who isn't... But then again...life is about trusting our feelings,taking chances,finding happiness,appreciating the memories and learning from the past."

Yes yes I've got my iPhone yesterday! Wonder if the one who stole my phone is dead...yet? whoops I'm actually very evil haha

It was yet another surprise by my beloved sister. Oh well, I kinda expected something to happen because she seemed to be hurrying me home yesterday night! It was so.... rare :P so I knew there was something amiss right away hah! Efforts like this always brighten up my day, somehow, sweet little surprises. (:

3 weeks of hell finally coming to an end! So so so so glad I had survived! Oh well, as always haha I only get tougher than before! heh
April now, which means school's gonna commence soon. Dreadddssss

My holiday is so not interesting...

2011-03-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

Last week of push cart to go, no more nasty things to happen to me please! Hope that everything goes well.

March seems to pass really slowly for me. It started so well with birthday celebrations and all, but somehow ended in a bad way. Sometimes it's good to keep yourself away from some people for a while to see who genuinely stand by you.

It's nice knowing there's someone waiting for me after work and being there when I'm all down, really appreciate Smiley for his little effort these days. haha oh well well well, wonder if he'd read this space..

Hmm not looking forward to April, because this means that school's gonna reopen in 3 weeks' time. Not awesome ): especially when I'm gonna meet new classmates and of course...am dreading SSM.

I think too much for my future and I'm scaring myself with it sometimes..

Random thoughts at blogger! Time to rest (:

2011-03-26T00:41:00.002+08:00

Caught Suckerpunch today! Yeah not my type of show, so no compliments :P
I don't game, this show's a 2/5 for me..boohoo

and this... kind of a disappointment? D:

I think when you think that you have all the happiness in the world, don't be complacent. Remember to be appreciative to those who were there for you, those who made your happiness possible, those who placed effort to be in your life. Because before you know it, mishap is on its way to you. It's like a cycle, never consistent.

Just when I thought I have it, I own it, life had to take it away from me. It's always like that. Guess this is the lesson for me, an expensive reminder for me. A reminder that nothing's gonna be for ever. We know it, but we're always so afraid to face it.

Seems like my fear is still haunting me at times, can't help but feel paranoid at times like that. Oh oh oh get on with life!

2011-03-22T23:35:00.002+08:00

It's not like I am careless that I've lost it. For that I'd very much bear the consequence. But it seems like there's no one I can blame right now but myself for not carrying my phone with me? Is that right? Or should I say someone else should bear the responsibility for this whole incident.. it shouldn't be me.

This whole thing was planned.
And the moment I saw the detached charger dangling by the table, I was so damn lost. You guys will never know how fucking lost that is ok, it was gone just like that.

It's not money that I've lost, but a freaking iPhone 4.

Ran here and there, called and called. Nothing I could do. Yes tears ran too, being such a girly these days. Fuck this week is seriously bad.

I STILL CAN'T ACCEPT THIS DARN FACT THAT MY PHONE IS GONE

2011-03-22T00:09:00.009+08:00

It surprises me with how people show their concern for me at unexpected moments. Yup I guess all of you still visit this quiet space of mine occasionally (: too bad there are no interesting entries! haha

Had a painful monday, hoping tomorrow will be a better day! Can't wait to get through March as fast as possible!!!!

Happy 3rd Month! (:

2011-03-19T23:57:00.002+08:00

Keep wanting to find time to blog a decent entry, but it came to me that I don't have the time and energy to do so. Even so, I have nothing interesting to update about. Ha?

So, the first week of intensive work just ended. I'm so glad I made it without falling sick or whatsoever, except a couple of headaches after work on most days. Basically I work 10am to 8pm on weekdays and a 12 hour shift on saturdays. This will continue for 2 more weeks and I'm done with torturous March. Promised myself I won't commit to work in April, I need time for myself and no one else. Yeah it seems like I have nothing to feel accomplished about, but an empty feeling which kinda bring my morale down. Not good to contemplate too much, for money seems more important now. It brings you temporary joy, isn't it? Yup temporary. On the other hand, it's good that work is keeping me occupied. Tiredness refrains me from thinking too much (:

Kite flying tomorrow, good weather please. I'm so looking forward to it; the last time I flew a kite was on my 17th birthday.

Kinda miss myself.

2011-03-16T22:42:00.002+08:00

Ohhhh myyyyy goddddddd heard result will be released tomorrow. I'd probably check during my break time at work. Hoping for the best!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok this sucks, headache every time after work ): time to sleep, tired to the maxxxxxxxxx

=/

2011-03-15T21:43:00.001+08:00

Tiredness + Mix feelings = Disaster.

It's only the second day and I'm supposed to repeat it for 13 more days!? Yes I'm not kidding ):

Need some colors in my life ):

2011-03-15T00:12:00.003+08:00

This is getting on my nerves. Can't get any peace after a tired day out at work. Wts.

2011-03-13T22:08:00.002+08:00

2011-03-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

Wonder how I am going to complete the run in May with my fitness level standing so low. Tomorrow will be the first day of working for 6 days straight per week. Please let me stay healthy through March.

2011-03-13T11:55:00.006+08:00

I think, I am always thinking and nothing can stop me from that. I begin to wonder if my needs were really met, or was it shun out every time mentioned. Compromising only works if both parties are truthful about what they are. When the amount of concern you give to someone is more than the one who you should be giving, you know it that things had gone haywire. Simple as it is, this speaks about the importance of myself existing. We humans, need to stop taking things for granted. Getting used to someone's presence is no excuse to stop doing things we should be doing, and definitely not an excuse for us to stop appreciating.
Nobody obliges that logic I guess.

Yeah I think, and I am always thinking.

2011-03-11T23:41:00.004+08:00

Sometimes we do things we shouldn't do, say things we shouldn't say, hear things we shouldn't hear.
And, feel things we shouldn't feel.

Changes just came and went in a split second, that I can't believe my eyes.

Blessings to the Japan tsunami victims.

2011-03-08T22:44:00.007+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to ME! :D

The day itself was well spent with Zy at USS! Yup it didn't rain!!!!!!!!!!! Wahaha so glad! But it was really sunny! Some funny incidents happened to Zy too! Shall not mention here, still can't help but laugh when I think about it. Oops :P

Haven't sat those thrilling stuff for such a long time! Even the canopy ride which seemed "harmless" gave my heart a roller coaster. Haha yeah such a coward D:

The best part.... was I get to take lots of photos!!! Yeeeaaaahhhhhh camera captures the best moments! Such a pity I don't own a dslr now, maybe in years to come? Yup and most importantly the company I had throughout the trip!! (:
Here are some of the photos!

Okay it was really really sunny yesterday!!

yoohoo carousel~! :D

HAHA do I look like him?

ZY!

Oh oh.... not to forget the surprises from 1H11,my sisters and jo&cherie! Yup it's the thoughtfulness that makes me happy this 18th birthday! (((: appreciate all their efforts for these surprises~

Happy birthday to Eric too! :D fierce fierce*
Had a great chalet with 1H11! fun bunch of classmates I ever had! (:

Yup love k sessions with them!!!! (:

last but not least.... from my lovely sisters :D

The reason why I love March every year :P

And thank you all for the birthday wishes flooded on my fb wall, twitter and phone!!

2011-03-06T23:06:00.001+08:00

11 hours away~ I'm so excited! Praying hard for a good weather; neither rainy nor sunny! Please let it be a good good one!

:D

2011-03-06T00:02:00.003+08:00

Oh gosh, haven't been working due to exams and tests earlier in february. Full shift today and I had a hard time passing time. No customers at all!!! ): but so glad I got to work with eileen, she's nice to talk to! At least that made my miserable time so much better (:

Talking about work, I'm actually working at 2 different places this holiday. Just like a full timer, I'm gonna work 5-6 times a week, yeah that's almost everyday. On the bright side, I get to see my goldfish for 5 days a week HAHA wah later get sick of each other how? Hahaha just joking!
Think of money and TW trip, I shall strive(hahaha). Gonna pray really hard that I won't fall sick cos' I know it's sure gonna happen -_- health is wealth!

Enough of my crap, gonna go cycle with goldfish tomorrow and he's gonna spent monday with me too :P my bigbig day! I can't waitttttt!!!!!!

haha all right so tired from work, gonna turn in like now, 12:20am. bonne nuit !

I know in the midst of being dependent, I must not lose that independent li lian. I don't want to experience that lost feeling ever again. What's yours will be yours, just let it be.
((: and yes, action > words, easier said than done. oh well?

2011-03-01T23:35:00.003+08:00

OMG I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-03-01T21:00:00.012+08:00

DONE WITH YEAR 1! :DDD
yes just hope my results will be good.

A year just passed like that in poly, how fast. I still can remember myself feeling oh-so-nervous for school, fearing that I won't make any friends there! Haha my anti-social nature.....

The beginning wasn't that bad after getting to know some of the girls in my class. Rachel! My look-alike! It's only the first day of orientation and people said we resemble each other! Ha!
Hmm and then slowly getting to know zit, yq and hm after weeks of school!

I can still remember the first presentation in TP! It was Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism! And all of us were so nervous about it, so excited wearing formal and all. Thinking about it now is kinda funny (:

POOF came sem 1.2, everyone in the class got closer! Oh oh oh, I can't say I bonded with everyone, maybe I need to speak and interact more with them this coming chalet. Haha realize people perceives me as introvert ): halo effect! haha ok whatever. But I'm not! (:

Yup I know it's kind of random for me to blog about this, but I'm gonna miss 1H11 for sure. I can't bear to change class! ): new people, new environment, new things to adapt too. Boohoo

Here are some photos with 1H11! :D

RACHEL!

ZHITING! (trying to cover her pimple :P)

AFTER FIRST PRESENTATION! HAHA!

LAPTOP DAYS..

OUR FIRST BBQ!

CHRISTMAS 2010~

CCN 2!

LAST DAY OF 1.2 );

Okay our class chalet coming up in the next few days! WOOHOO (((:

2011-02-27T18:29:00.006+08:00

Taking a break from OhBeh now!

Went over to istudio's chalet after econs paper on friday! Gosh wrong day to go because there was nothing to do except looking at the guys play fifa on ps3 -_-

Went home the next day and prepared for daddy's birthday treat at 店小二 , Tampines 1! Ordered the family feast! The food there is delicieux! haha yummeh~ I like the interior design of the restaurant too! Really antique and 复古！ (:

woah my dad agreed to take photo, that's really rare! :D

My nephew here! Getting demanding these days~ ohno

Pepper Maltese Tan!! (:

Haha spastic?

My phone's Homescreen wallpaper! :D

My gastric keeps coming back these days. I guess it's the unknown stress within me that's causing it to ache over and over again. Appetite really screwed too ):

Tsk can't wait for exams to be over! TUESDAY HERE I COME!!!

2011-02-23T22:52:00.003+08:00

Came home from library, napped, masked, got a hair cut and slacked all the way ):

My dad was being so idiotic, I don't see what is wrong going to the library for 4 hours to study. Not like I have a great study environment at home. He's just so contradicting at times. argh

I realized I find myself confiding in no one. It gets so tiring being the listener all the time. Don't even bother talking about concern and care, kinda received none. Oh well..

2011-02-22T01:15:00.002+08:00

THE TYPO SHIT IS STUPID!

No more Australia.

)':

2011-02-17T23:59:00.006+08:00

Phew, finally done with the CDS - Music. Now hoping for a pass so I won't have to retake any next semester. BCS tomorrow and that's it for Sem 1.2.

Didn't attend the year2 briefing today and got to know we actually have a module that's compulsory for us to choose between AUSTRALIA and MALAYSIA. Yes, two totally different countries, very different indeed.

WHY IS TP ALWAYS SO SLOW IN THEIR INFO DISSEMINATION ?!

Looks like I'd have to opt for malaysia looking at the expenses required.

This semester is coming to an end; I'd miss my classmates for sure ): first year poly classmates will be the best, I guess.

):

OH OH, LAST BUT NOT LEAST....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SANDBOY!!!! wahaha :D

♥♥

surprise operation succeeded! woohoo :D

2011-02-16T10:09:00.002+08:00

I AM DONE WITH FRENCH SPEAKING TEST!
It was really fast and I'm so glad my brain did not blank out! Gosh need to study geog soon, there are just too much stuff to read up on. My music presentation tomorrow, I guess my ppt is done and I'm gonna "just do it"! haha

24hours a day is seriously not enough. ):

2011-02-15T09:46:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!!!!

Had a great day out with zy! Taking photographs, spending time together, yup just a simple date (; I guess some of you must be shocked(?)/surprised(?) etc looking at the fb response haha yes yes that's my boyfriend :D

Love my vday and bday birthday presents very much! Now I can take lots of photographs! WOOHOOO~ :D love the SHAREHOLDER even more hahaha

okay no long essay valentine's post! Got to rush to school now >.<

Salut!

2011-02-13T00:24:00.002+08:00

OMG totally drained!

I had the two mosttttt most hated modules' tests on friday and saturday. I'm having a bad feeling for Music especially, it's 30% and I'll cry if I have to retake another CDS!

Valentines' this coming week! But school's so packed!

Interview role-play
French Speaking Test
Music Presentation
BCS Presentation

):

No time to spare!!!!!! OH MAN ):

2011-02-12T07:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm the one hindering myself from all the happiness by thinking too much.

Gonna be a changed girl from now on.

(:

2011-02-10T20:16:00.002+08:00

Woke up with an acidic stomach this morning. Probably due to not having dinner the night before. Losing my appetite somehow. Skipped uniform measurement to see the doctor. Sigh now I need to make my way down just to get this shit done, but I can't seem to find time.

BCS test is just tomorrow. I'm so dead for it. I had attended the lecture thrice(?) only and haven't touch on the theories. Next up would be Music this Saturday. Another theory module which I can't seem to link to. Please let me pass this CDS ):

Feels like I'm all alone for this battle, kinda back to the solitary days.

People are too concerned with themselves; they are too used to having their loved ones around them, they forgot what Cherish is.
Disappointment is what you get at the end of the day.

2011-02-07T22:37:00.003+08:00

Wondered if I took the wrong things too seriously and took the right things too lightly. Hope I am not losing my focus!

Oh mannnnnnnnnn I foresee lots of last minute revision for the upcoming tests.

SSM briefing today sounded scary. The discipline and all is just like my previous netball training; so so strict. And I'll probably be slogging like a slave for 8hours a week at TCC in sem 2.1. Hope to stay positively thr0ughout, gonna be a new learning experience!

Okay I better get off to study CS2 now!

2011-02-06T00:54:00.003+08:00

Once in a while you lose track of what you want in life. Lost mine this year.

I've known myself the longest and I think I'm changing. Changes have its good and bad, and I can be positive of change at times. But right now I dislike myself for what I've become.

Something within me keeps bugging my mind non stop. This is causing myself to use my heart more than my brain to think. I know this doesn't make any sense to any human being reading this entry. But that's how I feel.

Constantly telling myself what and how I should be, but it doesn't seem to work anymore.

Seems like nobody is there for me to rant to, except this pathetic blog of mine. And people should stop saying that I am emotional. That's not the right word. This is mere reflection.

Hmm just another phase of life..

2011-02-04T16:36:00.002+08:00

Elvis looking cool with his beng hair style~

Hahahaha the photo below is ugly but I think it's kind of funny HAHA

2011-02-04T03:29:00.005+08:00

I'm always driven crazy by tiredness.

Came home after watching Homecoming at NEX. Oh man that show is hmm.. somehow funny(or should I say lame?) but not that awesome to me. You'd probably want to watch other movies like It's a great great world or I love HK, guess it will be so much better.

I was so tired and when I'm home, saw the puddle of urine by my oh-so-cute Pepper! There goes my french notes ): yes I was so near the verge I can kill someone. Anger always turn to tears, and then I'm totally fine after that. My anger period is unbelievably short ):

Ok I hate this CNY except that I get to dress nicely and eat my steamboat. haha ok that sounds funny. But I don't seem to have that thrill to collect hongbaos whatsoever..

Booooo

My project contribution is dwindling, seriously what is going on and what is wrong with me.. I have no idea.

I just want to get over this semester fast although I can't bear to change class for year2.

Oh life, oh ironies.

):

2011-02-01T23:29:00.003+08:00

Had a bad bad dream last night. Rarely get dreams so scary that I wake up feeling so lost. Can't stop thinking of it cos' it's so real! Ok whatever.

WOOHOO changed my bedsheet with my sister just now! But the new bedsheet of mine kinda of stink! Ew..
But the best part is.... It's BLUE~ :D

My nails extensions are restricting me ): so glad it didn't meet any mishap in the middle of changing my bedsheet HAHA

Hmm CNY approaching, so are the tests and exams. ):

Not a good CNY I presume.

Big big sigh!

):

2011-01-31T23:32:00.002+08:00

So broke!
The weather is too cold.
Can't believe CNY is just 3days away.
Cherishing what I have.
Need more time management.
Need to start studying.
and start running, to stop feeling so sleepy
but the weather is too nice to not stay in bed.

I'm gonna pull thru' this whole feb!!!!!!!

2011-01-29T23:56:00.003+08:00

You can't make it up to someone for something you've done wrong. For it occurs over and over again. You can't make it up to the time that's lost, that's for sure.

You need to realize this is no game, if it is, it's definitely not going to benefit any of us. It seems like enlightenment period is over, ability to care has recede.

If you're only going to be there for someone because you need a company, you don't even deserve him/her. This is not right.

Last but not least, love from him > love from her. It should.

Too bad this is not about me.

2011-01-26T23:55:00.001+08:00

BCS, CS2, GTT, Music and French speaking test after CNY.

Totally understand how my seniors in poly felt this period last year. D:

2011-01-25T01:51:00.003+08:00

I like the way we are now! ♥

Okay... Looks like I'll have to study during CNY period. No festive atmosphere at all! But I can't wait to dress up and all heehee AND eat steamboat(only for the first day)! hahaha I reckon my mum will ask me to eat that for the first 2/3 days of CNY, oh nooo D:

So glad there's only two papers this sem.

Time to buck up! ):

2011-01-19T23:38:00.005+08:00

Don't know wtf is wrong with my memory in 2011. Never fail to forget the things I need to complete.
Left my thumbdrive in school's computer lab TWICE and managed to find it the next day, intact at the USB port both times I went to find it. Lucky I guess?
And today I forgot to submit my MC!!! Gonna submit it tomorrow, yeah hope luck's with me..

I think I work well in school lab than at home; should camp at school's computer lab more often!

Sem 1.2 is so exhausting.

Simplicity

2011-01-16T23:58:00.001+08:00

Hope I am not losing myself again! I am neglecting so much things. Need to do some self check.

2011-01-15T00:33:00.002+08:00

The best feeling in poly is the moment you hand in your assignment to your tutor. Yes! That relief feeling! But that's not the end because new assignment always pop out from nowhere. And that sucks.

Sometimes I get so damn tired and frustrated of people asking me to do this and that, it seems like they have no consideration of what I already have on hand. It's like their responsibility becoming mine out of a sudden. The harder I try to escape, the harder they haunt me down. Oh man.. have no idea how I can free myself from this.

Sometimes I wish I am a little more outspoken too. Not that I am not, but more often than not, I chose to tolerate and that isn't healthy. I think I have really good patience and tolerance, not kidding.

Sometimes I get so sick of all these secrets.

Happiness may be momentary but memories, be it good or bad, last for a long long time. I never want to lose it again.

(: this is not a very synchronized entry, doesn't matter do they?! BYE!

2011-01-11T10:25:00.001+08:00

Music essay to be completed by today!!!!!!!! ):

2011-01-05T18:33:00.004+08:00

Not having good time management this semester and I'm feeling super bad about it. Yup econs wasn't good as expected, though I ought to be glad that I've done okay. He told me I should stop comparing with others but myself; gonna keep that in mind for I dislike people comparing stuff too. (:

CNY approaching in less than a month, don't really have the festive atmosphere now.. I'd usually feel happy in the beginning of the year because there's cny and birthdays going on but I'm clueless why I'm feeling so mundane for 2011. Hmm..

All right, time to get motivateddddd(erm how ah?) and start on project!

Hmm some photos for my blog? :D

hehe can't wait for baby Elvis to call me 小姨！

ya ya zi lian a bit haha

Sissy (:

2010-12-30T23:33:00.004+08:00

Yes yes I'm here blogging instead of doing it at heritageculturearts.bs. =/

All right 2010 coming to an end.. As usual, I'm not gonna make any lame New Year Resolution or whatever. Trust me, you'll forget your NYR by the end of Jan 2011. So why waste time? (:

The first quarter of 2o10 was erm I forgot, I suppose I was working? haha followed by the start of poly life. Meeting new classmates -I swear they are gonna be the best people I'll ever meet throughout the 3 years in poly-, chionging projects, getting nervous for the first presentation and all.. Oh look how time flew.
Somehow I'm trying very hard to remember how 2010 went but it passed so fast that everything felt like last year! Yeah I'll have to admit my memory is getting really bad.

It's new year eve tomorrow!!!!! Still can't believe it though. And I'm gonna catch The Tourist after work! Yayyyyyyyy! (:

Leave the worries for tomorrow.